♫ Today More Than Yesterday – Kim Jong Kook
I’ve had this blog since last year but always ended up deleting blogs or never finishing them. Another weekend has come & gone, and yes, I am at home (Garden Grove) right now. If I were to stay Irvine on any weekend, this weekend should’ve been it since midterms are next week. But my cousin’s 7th birthday party & Tina’s birthday dinner were yesterday. So after a long day of lobster & bulgogi, I’m now sitting on my ass blogging & deciding what I should do next. Oh yea, that’s a recent picture of me in case you’re wondering how fat/skinny/sketchy/confused I look nowadays. I disappeared off the face of this earth since I started school again (or since I graduated high school) but yea, I’m still alive. PS — I’m really bad at selca pictures.
Seeing people again (& talking! OMG I don’t talk on weekdays b/c I don’t have anyone to talk to in Irvine!) is so comforting yet weird because people have changed so much (not necessarily a bad thing). I came to to Tofu House a bit after 9pm but ended up waiting for a really long time. I stood outside & talked to Lawrence who was sitting in his car haha — no worries, this is normal. We saw a huge crowd of people in front just standing around & wondered if they were in the same party. But being the anti-social band kids that we were, we never bothered to find out. But sure enough, 40 minutes later, they were from the same party. AWKWARD!! BCD has this new side dish that I really liked — fried (sweet?) potatoes covered with honey & black sesame seeds. I can’t figure out if the potatoes were sweet or not b/c the whole thing was covered in honey lol. But I’m going to make it sometime this week for dinner!
Anyways, besides the food, the place was packed. And not because it’s always crowded; Tina’s guests filled the whole left side area that was barred off. O_O Where did all the people come from? *shrugs* It a mixed crowd of people who were so-so. Lawrence & I skipped out on the ‘after party’ b/c just no haha. I don’t drink with strangers (I have my reasons). Only with homies haha! So that was that. I guess it would be nice if that I was that social & knew that many people to hold a birthday dinner. But honestly, what is the point? I’ve had so many bad experiences with creeps that I literally walked through thinking “OMG don’t touch me don’t touch me don’t touch me.” I’m just not into the whole touchy feely interaction (is that an appropriate word for this?) type of thing. I’m not mean… just bible distance people, if God doesn’t have room to stand comfortably in between, you need to back away a bit.
I’m okay with not having a fantastically social ‘college experience.’ I’m learning a lot at UCI & I’m happy with that. Even if it’s just me most of the time, I’m okay with that. I even do dishes now. I vacuum, I clean, I make my own breakfast, lunch, & dinner. I do my own homework (group work is for losers), I read (MIRACLE!), I exercise. I’m guessing my grades are pretty decent as of now. I’ll keep them that way. I have two things to look forward to that are keeping me in check: studying abroad & graduation.
I miss my other friends too. The ones who don’t live nearby. And in my vocabulary, ‘nearby’ = 30 minutes or less. One day, I will make plans to hang out, actually go through with them, & it’ll be a bomb time. But until then, I hope you’re all doing well.