I made pizza with one of my summer intensive classes… it was awesome. The best part was my mother being there to help out. There’s just something about a mother’s presence that makes kids listen more.
Archives for September 2012
September has been a shitty month for blogging. I am too busy complaining and trying to figure out the new program structure at work. The amount of effort I am putting into work is just shocking. Anyways, fall is finally here! Which means no more sweating like a teenager!
Autumn reminds me of one thing – Fall 2009. Fall 2009 made me want to come back to Korea. I miss everything about it – the weather, my tiny 300,000원/month closet of a room, Sinchon, after school naps, Hongdae, my 20th birthday, studying Korean 9am-1pm everyday, Kimbap Chungook, coffee shots, BLUE MONKEY, Korean2(7)B, post-it notes, etc… GAWDDDD why can’t I go back to that life????? I was broke as shit back then (still am nowadays hahaha) but I was so happy! The things I looked forward to included: going to the dog cafe, shopping in Myeongdong, shopping in Edae, board game cafes, eating the 1,500원 kimbaps from KLI, and eating soondae at an ungodly hour of the night. I’m pretty sure that’s when we came up with my mantra – what are we not doing with our lives?
How is it even possible to miss Korea when I’m currently living in Korea? 🙁 I miss 신촌 <3
MAN I MISS KOREA T_T One day, I’m gonna buy out the goshiwon building & open my Rare Earth Elements Hagwon there. We’ll have sundae for lunch everyday & go to the dog cafe for field trips.
I appear to have my life together. Besides being extremely organized & diligent when it comes to work, I have nothing. I don’t have any financial goals. I don’t have any urgent issues that require my attention. I go to work, I spend my money, & I do whatever I want (time permitting). I have a small student loan that I’m in no rush to pay off. I have no sense of urgency in my life right now…
Having no goals is taking its toll on me. I have a house full of snacks, full of stationary paper, full of things that I have paid for out of my own pocket… but there’s no inspiration left. This is no means an “I NEED A MAN” cry. It’s more of a… let’s be more responsible challenge cry. Let’s send money home every month. Let’s start eating out less. Let’s actually hang out with the people at work. Let’s walk around Daejeon more. Let’s hide out in Seoul less. Let’s stop making on the spur of the moment purchases.
Despite the amount of shit I am put through from time to time, I have a pretty good thing going on. I should start saving some money out of it. Even if I have no financial goals to reach, having money stashed away is a good idea. Man, if I really stay diligent, I might even apply for grad school next year. But I still have to decide if it’s worth it or not.
I miss having my mother here in Korea to take care of me. As much as I love my independence, I also love coming home to a clean house. I love having a hot meal ready after an 8-hour work day. I love having reassurance that only a mother can give. Hmmm, can’t wait to go home for a bit in January and February.
It’s that time of the year again… you know, where I question myself. And problems start to arise so I start looking for a way out. But after 2 years of hard work, it’s safe to say that I am ready for this fight.
This is dumb because I thought I was finally in a really good place. We have a good team dynamic at work. People are actually excited about shit. More importantly, we actually give a shit.
I hope negotiations will go well. I’m hoping that all I need to do is ask for a little help from people.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH this sounds like an emo post. But it’s not. 😀